Sometimes deployment just sucks and there isn't a positive spin. For the sake of honesty I'd like to write about that tonight. I haven't blogged in awhile and thought maybe I should wait until the funk passes. But why? Its not truthful when I ALWAYS give my posts a silver lining, a happy ending, or a funny twist.
Sometimes the distance feels greater. Sometimes the communication is nonexistent. Sometimes the everyday stresses feel more stressful. Sometimes life feels darker. Sometimes there is a strange kind of joy found in the unhappiness. It happens.
I've learned this mood can be contagious. Just look on Facebook and you can track the general mood of the day. Lots of people complaining about the weather, feeling sick, being overwhelmed lately. Or is that just my interpretation? Could be. Unhappiness finds unhappiness.
Time to attack the infection one pathetic thought at a time. Time to fight off the depression. But I really don't want to. Why does the nature of depression make us hold on so tightly to the misery? Why do our minds sabotage us into staying depressed?
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I got some work done. I enjoyed the peace of my house. I got to talk to my hubby for 13 glorious minutes. Then, I checked Facebook and the first 4 status updates on my news feed involved the words "soooo fun", "new day", "good day", and "full of inspiration". Now everybody seems happy, including me! I guess my vision has cleared. Things are looking more rosy again:)
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